realization

at one point in your life you realize how much time you spent trying to be enough for the people who were never gonna stay, and only realizing it when it feels too late. you start questioning everything about urself, every relationship that ended, all the people who stopped caring, the conversations that felt so one sided, the friends who haven’t texted you back after graduating, like you have to convince everyone to keep you around. and you start wondering whether it was them or maybe it was something wrong with yourself the whole time. maybe you did too much, maybe you weren't enough, or maybe you just weren’t a likable person to begin with, and everyone knew it except you.

eventually you stop convincing people to stay, because you’ve already felt the emotions when they leave. you get quieter, more distant as time moves on. the thoughts inside your head aren't pronounced out loud anymore. you still wish for someone to understand you, but after being misunderstood so many times it starts to feel pointless.

~ nazeef 10/12/2026